I will speak on this fracture and the lesson to be learnt from this whole thing the lesson I live and the lesson all of you can learn. first thing first question everybody asks, why did swamiji get onto the horse. what is the need. see life is not suppose to be just to wake up on the same bed and walk through the same floor and get into the same vehicle and go to the same office. come back and lie down in the same bed. life is learning. so I also thought why not pick up horse. horse riding. and after all this horse riding, swimming all this things are inside our bio memory, just if you awaken it, it will come out so I thought why not try. thats the reason I tried. nothing wrong it was going well everyday it was going well, everyday I was going around the ashram on horse morning and evening. I think that day little bit of music, loud music and all the ashramite started cheering up so the horse got excited nothing else thats all and the moment I fell. first thing I thought is Oh! these fellows should not suffer. All the bhramachris and ashramites were around me. They should not suffer. First thing I told them I am OK don't worry. I am OK don't worry. Thats what I told them first thing. and after I got up I saw the fracture in the hand. I told them may be fracture and lets go the the hospital and do whats need to be done. first we went to 7 o'clock I fell pm only they did the surgery, till then no painkiller no anaesthesia no pain no painkiller no anaesthesia no pain its a compounded two fracture bones are all piece piece And doctors were shocked, surprised they are again and again saying what do you mean by no pain,swamiji I said I don't know. Actually the fracture did not do any problem to my body, now little sickness I am having is the medicine these fellows infused in my body this antibiotics and all the anaesthesia everything they infused into my body that is the reason I am having little cough and all that otherwise the original fracture did not do anything there was no suffering there was no pain and fortunately the moment I fell from the horse that is also completely video recorded in the security camera. and the whole. How I was taken to the hospital? Whole thing is video recorded. and surgery is also video recorded. They are saying impossible. the doctors are saying it must be excruciating pain,swamiji Because the bone has come out of the skin. There was bleeding And some three four pieces it became. two fractures and 3 more pieces and you may ask why no pain. see, there was no suffering. I did not look back to think why did I get into the horse. I did not look back. I could have just avoided getting into the horse or the bhramacharis would avoided the music. See time shaft what ever is happening its a kalbhairava, guru. kalbhairava is guru time shaft. Time shaft should not be looked at with a 'why' you should not look at time shaft with post mortem look. I did not do postmorterm. This is the way life is. Thats all. either look at time with a deep complete acceptance or with gratitude. fortunately there was no injury on the head. there was no injury on the back. usually when people fall from the horse they have injury only on the head. they break all bones. nothing of those injury has happened. so I look at kalabhairava only with gratitude. kalabhairava is guru. life is guru. do not look at life with a post mortem mood. I could have thought, Oh!this fellows could have avoided the music. these fellows could have avoided the shouting and cheering up. I could have avoided getting on the horse. what is the need for me to learn horse at this age. horse riding. who asked me to learn horse riding? thousands of ways, you can ask why towards the life but why towards the life always brings suffering. why and if and wife all three bring suffering. the why does not give any answers. it just brings more and more suffering, so I always tell you look at the life. look at kalabhairava. kalabhairava means time shaft. what ever is happening. look at life either with complete acceptance or with deep gratitude. thats all. then there will not be any suffering. actually the wound there was no pain. I told the doctors I requested them again and again please do the surgery with out anesthesia I wanted to see but they were afraid. they were afraid to do without anesthesia. they gave anesthesia and did the surgery the doctors who did surgery. They were saying even with anesthesia people groan, moan. oo, aa it pains when they pull the hands. When they pulled my hand,they had to use lot of force to pull the hand to place it properly and drill. see when the bone marrow is drilled. whatever is bone marrow will come out bone marrow in all the human body. only pain will be there, when they drill with a screw they have put 2 plates and 8 screws these guys they were telling me when they drilled the screws the only thing I was saying is Nama Shivaya Nama Shivaya thats all there was nothing else. there was no groaning. there was no sound. doctors have said they have never seen a patient not only no pain even unconscious, even with the medicine anesthesia there was no moaning or graoning. So the lesson we need to learn from this whole thing. my prasadam to you. see this is a great experience for me. so I can give you the prasadam of this experience is. never go to life, kalabhairava, guru all these three are one and the same. see life only teaches you. guru only teaches you. when the life is intensely teaching you, it is guru. life or kalabhairava or guru. never go to kalabhairava or guru with the mood of why. always go with the mood of acceptance or extraordinary gratitude. not only that I will show you now miraculously how in two three days the whole thing gets healed. completely the whole thing gets healed. I will show you. And the whole healing miraculously happened because of no suffering. no suffering no pain. so learn this small lesson. come on sit with this one idea for few minutes. let me approach life with the deep gratitude or full acceptance. No 'why' to life.